Trust in the Lord and do good; dwell in the land and enjoy safe pasture. Take delight in the Lord, and he will give you the desires of your heart. Psalm 37:3-4
Australia is one of my dream countries to live in and I’ve been praying for quite a while for an Australian company to hire me.
That prayer was answered in December 2022, just a few days before 2023. I left the company I work for at the time and started in February. It was amazing! The company I work for helps not-for profits grow so they can continue doing their good work. The campaigns I help run show ads about women getting financial assistance to free themselves from domestic violence, kids with cancer who’ll experience a nice Christmas for the first time, people with different abilities who thrive independently because they were given enough support, and many more. Company with a purpose? CHECK! This must really be God’s doing!
In the first few months, people were commending my work. They were so happy that they realized it’s a good thing to hire project managers in the Philippines so they added 2 more. With the eventual addition of other PMs, I began questioning myself. I began thinking "What if people find out that I’m not really as good as they think I am? I didn’t learn project management in school nor do I have any certificate to show for it. What if I’m only as good as my last achievement?". I began asking God why He puts me in project management positions when the only reason I could do this work was because I had an innate ability to plan elaborately. I have been planning details of my life ever since I can remember. And you know what God told me? He said “I did it that way so you know IT’S ME AND NOT YOU. You didn’t earn it through any schooling – you were born that way, I made you that way” O diba? Crying moment!
And you know what God told me? He said “I did it that way so you know IT’S ME AND NOT YOU. You didn’t earn it through any schooling – you were born that way, I made you that way”
Then, I began asking, “Lord, bakit sobrang hirap? Is this really from you or PINILIT KO LANG?” I was so stressed and depressed that I went back to Psalms in my devotion to go through how David can still praise God amidst persecution – ganon na talaga yung feeling ko. Few weeks later lang yun ha?! See how humans easily forget! I was ready to drop my dreams of going to Australia that I already have a resignation plan! “Bloom where you are planted.” na yung nasa isip ko, even when the company already announced that they are bringing all offshore employees to Australia – parang ayoko na. I had a lot of fears:
“Mas nakakahiya nang magresign since they will spend so much to bring us to Australia.”
“Kung magpapa-absorb ako mas lalong malaki yung expectation of me kasi ginastosan ako.”
“If I’m already in Australia, matatali na ako sa company and they’ll be expecting me to come to the office, kasi what’s the point of sponsoring me?”
God appeased me by telling me “Punta ka lang. Gusto mo mag Australia diba? Check mo lang. This is not about moving yet, you are just there for work – work that they are willing to pay, nothing more or less.” So sabi ko, ok Lord. And looking back as I write it now, yan pala ang theme ng Worship Festival that I was privileged to be a part of “Come and you will see. - John 1:39"
And so I went and brought Drew with me. And you know what we found out? IT WAS AMAZING!!! Australia is amazing! Everyone at work is amazing!
So lilipat na ba kami sa Australia? Hindi ko alam. The point system tells us we don't measure up. Do I want to? Of course! But for now, I’m surrendering my future to God, knowing that He always knows what's best for me.
Lord, thank you for opening windows for me to see before opening doors for me to go. Thank you for that wonderful experience and my prayer is for you to help me stay steadfast as we go through this journey together. In Jesus’ mighty name. Amen.
very happy how things turn out for you knowing you im sure things will happen as you wish it will be. 😉